6 week post

I just knew I was pregnant. I knew 4 days before I missed my period. I stared having waves of random nausea and these crazy vivid dreams. Enough of a sign for me at least and I was so right. Two years ago my husband and I lost our first pregnancy. I am not going to lie there was a huge part of me that remained bitter towards new mommas. I thought for a long time it was because I was over weight or because there was something wrong with me. I thought if I could just be more healthier it would come much easier. Still month after month, nothing. We weren't trying really to be fair. We were actually gearing up for our wedding and my husband and I both took new a new job so there was a lot of new things going on.

When I started getting symptoms I couldn't wait. I had to check and very faintly, I saw two tines instead of one. I thought I was seeing things or that the evaporation line was what I was seeing. I thought maybe I stored the pregnancy tests i had on hand wrong. So I took another one and that one ALSO had a faint line. I guess 2 wasn't enough for me I had to drive to CVS and pick up a box of unopened pregnancy tests to be sure.. 

another faint double line. 

Is this really happening? Should I tell my husband now or later? should I wait a few days until after my period and retest? 

I have such a hard time keeping anything from my husband. Even the littlest gift that supposed to be a surprise I cant do it... its like I want him to be happy already. So I told him to look at the lines I was seeing... He didnt believe me! 

So I waited a few more days because Ill be honest, I didnt believe it either. Sure enough on the day my period was supposed to come, a darker double line appeared. Greatest news ever.

So come along on my journey as a new mom! I have no idea what I am doing but I have God on my side and with him, anything is possible.